Four years. Four years filled with little sleep, fluctuating body weight due to emotional eating, twelve-hour days spent in the Allen Library, weekends spent studying instead of attending movie nights, times of prayer filled with inescapable tears, times of prayer filled with debatably justified anger, and times of prayer filled with unending joy. Four years … Continue reading The Unimaginable Closing Chapter.
It's humorous when it works out that way, isn't it? Here I am astonished over the unbelief of others yet something happened recently and it is almost as if Jesus looked at me and said, "Oh you of little faith. Don't you know who I am?" Now when I pretend to speak like Jesus, He … Continue reading Amazed at MY unbelief.
My earliest days of skepticism over the Christian faith began in middle school, possibly earlier. I remember thinking to myself, "Jesus if you could just show up right now or if you could just perform some sort of miracle, there would be no question about my faith in you." I wonder if you have ever … Continue reading Amazed at their unbelief.
I recently saw something in the circle of "Christian news" that I wanted to stuff inside a closet and never unleash said discovery. When there is built-in sin that can disgustingly harm and destroy people of the Church, there is something in me that wants to spread that news. I believe this traces back to … Continue reading Undeniable feelings, deniable God.
Facebook friends are the most awkward "friendships" out there. I remember sixth grade old me friending everybody because that is what you do as an eleven-year-old, I guess. "Hello person that I've never talked to but I have seen in our middle school hallways...we are Facebook friends now...even though I have no intention of messaging … Continue reading My foolish high school self.
I made this promise with myself and well, the world, that I would be spiritually and physically fit by twenty-two. You may want to read that first for context purposes. But here's the spoiler, I was incredibly physically fit by the time of my birthday. My lowest weight was an accurate measurement of the frightening … Continue reading Hidden misfortune, humbling catastrophe.
Feelings are scary to me. I like to bypass them when I can. In other words, I am twenty-two and am slowly learning how to express my feelings healthily. Logic on the other hand is captivating in my eyes. I love following theories and understanding the reasons behind unfathomable concepts...well, trying to at least. Logic … Continue reading The preposterous forgiveness of God.
"Hey, guess what, we misinterpreted the Bible everybody. We were wrong!" I cannot begin to tell you how much I crave and hope to hear that. As someone who wants to spread the love and hope of the gospel to this secular city and the rest of the world, that is something I wish I … Continue reading Uninvited thoughts, unavoidable temptations.
When I was in middle school, I allowed myself to express my anger unhealthily to my brother. When I was in high school, I took a shortcut and did not fully participate in the "5k final" we had to do for my P.E. class. When I was in college, I partially lived a double life … Continue reading Inescapable disappointment, tremendous glory.
Take this entry more like a reflection than a life lesson. Haha, I say "life lesson" as if I am knowledgeable and worthy of giving advice. Being brave enough to schedule a dentist appointment does not suddenly make you wise enough to give "adult advice", Kira! Gaahhhh! Where was I? Oh yeah! Take this post … Continue reading Remarkable beauty through my singleness.